'My skin colour was a constant reminder of mum’s betrayal'

At the height of his fame, drummer Andrew ‘Shovell’ Lovell had everything he’d dreamed of: sex, drugs and regular appearances at the top of the charts with the dance music band M People. But sell-out shows, first-class travel and five-star hotels couldn’t stop the questions gnawing away at him. As a mixed-race kid growing up in a white family in south London he wanted to know: who were his birth parents? Why had they given him up? The answer, when it came, was shocking.

A disruptive and unruly child, Andrew was asked to leave school aged 15. He found a trade as a plumber but his true passion was music. He joined M People in the early 90s and by 1995 he was touring the world. The band was celebrating its second platinum-selling album in 1998 when Shovell sat down for a heart to heart with his adoptive parents on Christmas Day. He was 33 at the time, and a star – M People was one of the most successful dance music acts in the world with hits like Search for the Hero and Moving On Up. But deep down Andrew was still a little boy with a big question – to which he was about to get a devastating answer. The revelation of who his real mother was left him reeling and plunged him into a breakdown.

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Presenter: Jo Fidgen

Producer: Hetal Bapodra

(Photo) Andrew 'Shovell' Lovell crouches, looking straight into the camera, fingers and thumbs steepled with the tips pointing downward. Andrew is mixed race, shaven headed and wearing multi-coloured camouflage trousers, a mid-green collarless jacket and trainers.

Photo Credit: Gavin Mills Photography