9th of September (4th blog entry)
Hi everyone!
My apologies - this is going to be a rather short blog entry!
(my landlord need his computer in 30 minutes)
I feel very demoralised!
I had my first session of micro teaching today. Micro teaching means basically teaching to your own fellow students and be supervised by one of the teacher trainers.
I was terrible nervous and made many really stupid mistakes. Watching me, no one could have believed that I ever stood in front of a classroom before.
Well - it's a long time since my teaching got evaluated and I felt very self-conscious. Teaching in a foreign language is of course a challenge, especially when this language is subject of your teaching.
All my fellow students (in that group) did a wonderful job, although most of them were real "greenhorns" to teaching; and I the old veteran behaves like an absolute yokel (an uneducated and unsophisticated person).
I feel I have failed myself, but there is no use of/in pitting yourself!
Tomorrow is another day!
And I will try to do better the next time!
"The art of living is - to get always back on your horse, after you have been thrown off!" (I don't remember who said that, but I try to live by this maxim.)
Simon - you are right, this course IS very demanding!
We have sessions until 5:30 (and barely any breaks between). I come "home" and cook myself a dinner and go in my room to make homework for another 2-3 hours. The weekends a reserved for writing reports and more homework and additional reading.
I hope I can keep up that pace (and I hope they don't increase the strain they put on us already).
I consider myself a diligent student but even I have limits somewhere!
Simon - can you please explain me the difference between syllabus and curriculum? You are not the first one I asked, but no one could give me a satisfying answer so far.
My main objective during the next days is to deal with my increasing doubts, whether I'll succeed to pass all requirements to obtain the CELT (Certificate of English Language Teaching).
Bye for now!
(next time hopefully in higher spirit!)
Your Marvin
Comments
Hi Marvin! Go out for a walk to get fresh air and look at your position from another perspective! Sitting and doing that strenuous learning long hours make no sense. You are only two non-native speakers there! That certainly can not be described as covardice. Your hard work and courage has been appreciated yet at accepting you to the course. That is the point you may take off. And you will smile at the end. Better times will come to those who want and work. You have got big audience here not to mention the really lovely teacher who could be like your twin.
Hi Marvin! I think you are too exacting to youself! When you do your micro teaching, you shouldn't feel like at exam! Now you are just student and it's your right to make mistakes and to learn through this mistakes. Good luck!
Hello Marvin! Don't be afraid becasuse the more rewarding things are those which more cost to achive. Good luck
Hi, Marvin! Don’t be upset! I’m sure you will get this certificate and become a good teacher of English, because you have everything you need: you know this language and you have an experience of teaching. It’s difficult now because you are not native speaker, but it will be easier soon. Don’t give way to diffidence and everything will be great. Good luck, Marvin!
Hi Marvin! Don´t worry! You´re a very dedicated student and you´ll succeed in passing the CELT. You´re doing a great job :-). Best wishes, Ana Paula.
Hi again Marvin! You're so right, tomorrow's another day. But don't worry because we all learn from our mistakes and our difficult days. I like your optimism ...way to go! Remember that just because it was a difficult day it doens't mean it was bad. I wish you a nice day for tomorrow!! Liz
Hi Marvin, cheer up my friend. Everybody has a bad day sometimes. I myself had one today. But I'm sure you'll do much better next time. you're probably just warming up. I can tell that you seem to be a very dedicated person and this is more than half the way. See you soon. Best wishes.
Hi Marvin, I've been searching about the meanings of syllabus and curriculum. Both words are similar but I prefer refer them as a chain of priority. Syllabus is the relation of subjects that has a course. Curriculum is the relation of courses that you have made. In other words (reformulating) Curriculum is the detail of the courses that you have made and syllabus is the detail of each course. See you
I think it's too early to say that you feel demoralised becase you haven't got any feedback from the teacher trainer yet.By the way,I love a teacher who has a good sence of humour.Best wishes
I think of syllabus as what is given out to the students detailing course requirments, books to be used and assignments, curriculum I think of as more behind the scences, not shown to the students and much more detailed, detailing all course subjects. You would never hand out the 'curriculum' on the first day of class to your students, you would hand out the 'syllabus' Hope that helps!
Hello Marvin, Cheer up!!! It's the first step that costs! Try, try, try again. Failure is the mother of success!!! Surely you'll do it much better next time! Lots of luck! Yen.
Marvin, it sounds as you have a lot on. As important as it is to make the most of the time in Ireland, I agree with some of the other people, that it is also good to take some time off from studies and give a mind a rest. Have a good weekend…
Hi my friend you arenot alone.I have a simillar situation now.but Iam hopefull and persistent.Althouh we must hard work .
Hi Marvin, I had faced a similar situation like you, the first time when I was a teacher in computer science. All students in my first class didn't believe because of my experiences and my ages. Their eyes and their behavior were showing that. I feel a lot of anxiety, and then I made many mistakes. How could I pass this situation? I though what should I do for now and tomorrow in patience, the faults of yesterday is key to succeeded for the feature. I tried to think nothing about that, it decrease my nervousness and prevent making mistakes. Let confident more Marvin. I wish you can pass this period time. I am sorry about any ambiguity because of my English skills.
Ciao, Marvin! Wie geht's? It's a long time we haven't been hearing from you. Maybe the micro teaching was much more teasing than expected because you weren't acually in front of a regular class. They were your fellow students: teachers like you and, you know, a teacher's work is evaluating, too. It was an examination you were going through also because you didn't think about them as real students. Be mentally prepared to be constantly and abruptly examinated: I think this could be the mental set required in your situation. Don't think about whether you'll succeed in passing your exam. Be calm and a good student: this is your role at the moment. In the end try to take advantage of your doubts as they were a sort of fuel and... make a splash! (cut a fine figure)
Hi, Marvin i suggested you don't give up so easily.At first you'll find it difficult but with more practice and you do it everyday i am sure you can overcome your problem..i wish you luck Marvin.Happy go Lucky
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