Island Life - December 2007

One of the cutest things has hapened in my wee girls life ~ she realises who Santa is and it is just so cute!! She keeps talking about him and how he's coming to our house and how she is going to give him spag bol for tea ~ no mince pies here!! We even have to leave a light on so he can find the house! Kids don't you just love them?
At times I long for five minutes peace but seeing them developing right in front of your eyes is just the most amazing thing ever. She is only two but is so on the ball. Being a full time mum can be such hard work and you can feel very unappreciated at times but it is all so worth it.
I am looking so forward to Christmas morning and seeing her wee face light up. Her wee brother is probably a bit too wee to realise whats going on but you never know eh? This is the first Christmas where we have actually managed to get the kids some decent presents ~ I know thats not whats important about Christmas but the giving adds to it. We are having the family down for Christmas lunch so the house will be bursting at the seams and I can't wait!! I think I might be more excited than the kids.
The icing on the cake would be some snow. I only really remember one really snowy winter here but I don't think the island has ever looked so beautiful. We went for a walk round the Castle Grounds in Stornoway and the branhes of the trees were heavy with snow ~ it was just breathtaking. I have photo's of it that I could show you all but I haven't got a scooby how to put photos onto this thing yet!!
Theres one other bonus about the wee one believing in Santa to ~ I have told her all about the little elf thats sits up on the chimney and tells Santa if she and her brother have been a good little girl and boy.......... Is that really scroogely of me????

Well I am sitting infront of my fake fire, with all the christmas decorations up, both babies asleep on the couch and wondering how much longer we are going to have power! It is absolutley howling out there. Had to go out a wee while ago to take the washing in (quite surprised it didn't end up in Kilda) and I had to rescue some plant pots that decided to start flying round about the garden!!
It is absolutley freezing out there too ~ but there's nothing like sitting in a warm toasty house and hearing the wind howl down the chimney! This is definately my favourite time of year.
All we need is some snow....maybe by the time santa comes to visit ~ it's certainly getting cold enough for it. And maybe if it gets really cold it might kill of all these bugs that the kids seem to be coming down with constantly just now. They both no sooner got over having a cold, then they both got a tummy bug and now they have ear infections ~ they really aren't having a good time of it just now, poor wee souls. Think the worst is over now though they both seem to be on the mend now (until the next bug hits!) There is some snow on the very tips of some of the hills so lets hope it starts making its way down soon.
Just listening to the last load of washing for the day doing its final spin. It really sounds sick and I mean very sick......Think I'd better call a washing machine fixer manny on Monday ~ hopefully it will hold out till then.
Well guess I'd better go and help hubby pop these kiddies up to bed. They both keep waking cos of the wind but they seem pretty zonked now. Don't think I will be far behind them either....... Night folks :)

What do you do when you just feel so crap you don't know where to turn cos you don't want to drag everyone down with you? To take a line from a song "..the drugs don't work they just make you worse...". Its a very evil circle. Pills or no pills nothing seems to work anymore. Surrounded by people but yet feeling so lonely. The happy face just can't be forced anymore... Sorry people just having a bad day!

My humble apologies for my last bleak posting I normally just 'get on with it' but I felt really useless yesterday. Thank you for all you comments though they cheered me up no end! Normally I just put on a smile regardless of whats going on inside but I just felt very stuck yesterday. I think its made worse by the fact that I have a great hubby, two adorable kids and I kind of end up feeling that I don't have any right to feel so crap. If that makes any sense at all. It was just one of these days I guess on this bumpy road....
On the plus side my wee girl is going to meet Santa on Thursday at her nursery party. I can't wait to see her wee face. She is so looking forward to Christmas this year and she will love having all the family down (well a fair few of them). No doubt she will keep us all entertained - she is a real wee character. If I could bottle up and sell the energy that she oozes I would be very rich indeed!!
Well it was just a quick post to say sorry and thanks really, so sorry and thanks...:)

It is unbelievably chaotic just now and its brilliant. We have been to the first proper christmas party where my wee girl told santa he was wierd!! Out of the mouths of babes. I think all her excitement is contagious cos I think I am as excited as she is - think it might be me going through to wake her up early on Christmas morning :)
Thankfully the only black dog that has been appearing a lot over the last few days is our own black dog (my sanity a lot of the time)! Although its not all good quite yet actualy saying it out loud (so to speak) on here has helped a lot. I didn't get treated like a freakazoid, which is what I feel like most of the time. I'm not very good at talking out loud about it all and I spend a lot of time writing (when I get time) but I was kinda just reaching a dead end doing that. This is something that has come and gone as long as I can remember, since about 12 or 13 I think. The only problem with treatment for it over here, or should I say my experience, is that docs are quite happy to hand out the happy pills but don't really seem interested in getting to the root of the problem. Don't get me wrong some of the pills have helped take the edge off, others have just made it worse but I don't want to be on pills for the rest of my life, or for prolonged periods in my life. Its still very much a thing over here that people know about it but no-one wants to talk about it. Don't know if its pride or what but its about time the stigma with it got stamped out!
Complete change of subject I think before I bore anyone too much!
Don't know if any of you have seen the Lewis peat calendar that has been on sale for charity, but I was flicking through e-bay last night and there is a signed one on there - man they are brave baring their bums to the world - all for a very good cause though! Hope they get a really high bid for it it was at twenty quid or so when I saw it last night.
Going to head up to the big city over the next few days to get the last odds and sods for Tuesday. Do't think I have forgotten anything but you never know eh?!
Well I guess I better go and try and get these kiddies off to bed, they slept in the car tonight when we were out so they are having their second wind now.....:)

Hope everyone had a fandabby christmas! We had a fantastic day with family and friends - thought the house was going to burst at the seams!! The kids got spoilt rotten by everyone but they had an absolutely great time. Think I have finally found a home for all the stuff they got. I think the bit they enjoyed best though was having (quite a lot of) the family round about them - and well thats what it should be all about!
Unfortunately the only down point of the day was no snow - but I guess we cannae have it all. It was blowing a hoolie and was really wet but it didn't manage to dampen anyones festives spirits. No doubt we will get some snow when the baby lambs are due to be born thats usually the way it goes!!
Now its time to think about the New Year resolutions........Just incase I don't get a chance between now and then hope you all have a great New Year and its a happy and healthy one :)