Goodbye to All This Podcast
“I still love him and I miss him.” Losing the thing you are most sure of and coming out the other side - a story about life, love and loss. A 12-part memoir by Sophie Townsend.
Episodes to download
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12. Moving
Mon 28 Dec 2020
He’s still here all the time. Yet he’s not. And a diary has more in it than expected
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11. The shoe
Mon 21 Dec 2020
“She hates me going into her room”. A pink, strappy, high-heeled shoe causes a big row
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10. Appointment
Mon 14 Dec 2020
The washing machine breaks. The bills are mounting. Sophie almost electrocutes herself
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9. Something new
Mon 7 Dec 2020
“You’ll never find anyone if you’re not online.” Sophie is ready to start dating again
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8. Going under
Mon 30 Nov 2020
“Mama, I can’t get to you!” There’s unexpected danger on a family holiday
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7. Port in the storm
Mon 23 Nov 2020
“His death is nothing like the worst thing. The worst thing is now”
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4. Crashing waves
Mon 2 Nov 2020
“I’m sorry it’s not better news.” A hospital appointment feels like a polite break-up
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3. Family portrait
Mon 26 Oct 2020
“Hold on, we think. Hold on.” A photo and a moment captured, before it all begins
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2. The secret
Sun 18 Oct 2020
“Of course you’re crying. You’re very, very frightened.” And now nobody must know
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1. A shadow
Sun 11 Oct 2020
“He blows a kiss and I see it - exhaustion in his eyes. How didn’t I notice it before?”
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Prologue
Thu 1 Oct 2020
“I don’t dream about him for weeks. And then, there he is, woven into my sleep.”
Goodbye to All This on YouTube
See visualised versions of Sophie Townsend's memoir on the World Service YouTube channel
