This is the penultimate entry to my diary before I take a break from this rather strange exercise. One of the difficulties of any public diary is that the word 'diary' is a contradiction in terms - it implies access to private thought, but of course that's impossible. Self-censorship is necessary in any public statement; not to do so would upset convention and professional etiquette. In other words, sometimes what I would like to say is impossible, so I am limited to what I can say. It's a truism that we're privileged to be part of this industry. It's also a truism that to moan about its inadequacies is churlish.

Godsend opened, people went, they seemed to like it, and [distributor] Pathe is more then happy with the box office. At the same time The Hole played on Channel Four - the film gathered an entirely new audience, and having films play simultaneously in the cinema and on TV was great for everybody involved. In some ways I think they are two very similar films - in the sense that both deal with terror from a psychological point of view and both rely on the internal mental disturbance of a main character to supply the horror. As I've said before, I like to create disturbing domestic stories - the every day is much more frightening then the gothic; the familiar made unfamiliar is always more interesting.

"PEOPLE HAVE RESPONDED TO THE REVELATIONS"

I spent this week watching the edit of the video diary, which Pathe is adding as an extra to the DVD release of Godsend. If you remember, I shot a record of the US opening, which now has been crafted and honed by a very talented young editor and producer team into a complete story. Even though I hate watching myself, people have responded to the revelations, and the process of being a voyeur on my agonising journey in Hollywood seems to have supplied much amusement - my brother now thinks it should be exploited and turned into a reality docu-soap, with me as the star as we prep and produce our next film.

It would be a weekly series giving access to the production process and to be broadcast simultaneously with the movie release. It's only interesting if you let the audience in, but showing too much of the process can demystify it and is often not a good idea. So there you are, we're back to where we were at the beginning - what you can reveal, and what you want to reveal are often at opposite ends. I think the idea has some merit, I'm just not sure I want to be the meat in the middle of the sandwich.

As I sit writing this, I've just been told we've secured new offices for our company - Greenroom Digital. It's been a trial but we're happy to have finally landed a creative space where everyone associated with the company will feel comfortable. The landlord seems decent and unrepresentative of their kind, I hope it all works out.

I'm still casting and enjoying that. It's the most important part of the process - make the wrong choice in this period and everything else is doomed. I've also been doing a little bit of fishing since my last entry. Fishing and filming - there's a similarity between the two. But being unlucky in one area is often a sign that you'll be lucky in the other. To be a fertile fisherman and to be able to make good movies... now there's a dream! The bait that attracts the fish is just like the project that attracts finance. Everything has to be right and you have to be patient (by 'you' I mean the fisherman or film director). The trouble is there is no serenity in setting up a film, whilst in waiting for a fish there is nothing but.

More next week...

When Nick was in America he shot footage of Godsend's LA premiere:
Watch it here