To come out of the Adelaide Test with nothing after playing some wonderful cricket was devastating.
There were a lot of very, very disappointed people in the dressing room as you would expect.
But we have got to draw a line under Adelaide now and bounce back. It's as simple as that.
The reality is we are 2-0 down with three Tests to go but the key thing is we are still in with a chance.
 Collingwood became only the third England player to score a double hundred in Australia |
All kinds of scenarios played through my mind before the final day's play.
The way we spoke before the morning session, we were going to try and get through the session unscathed and even go on and possibly set a target and push the result in our favour.
But we all know that didn't happen and I believe this was down to Australia's world class bowlers who put us under a lot of pressure.
When you're under that kind of pressure - you're losing wickets, the ball is reverse swinging and you've got the best spin bowler in the world bowling at the other end turning it a long way - it's hard to make batting decisions.
But we have to admit we weren't good enough on the day.
They sensed victory and Shane Warne was key in that and they went for the jugular.
Even though I'll always remember my individual performance of scoring a double hundred, sadly the match is going to be remembered for being a Test match we lost and that meant we went 2-0 down in the series.
When you lose a Test match, personal performances go out of the window unfortunately.
They were some excellent performances by England, Matthew Hoggard's seven wickets and Kevin Pietersen's 158 so to come out with nothing is doubly disappointing.
Although everyone seems to be writing off our chances of retaining the Ashes, I think we have proved we can play the cricket to beat Australia.
We have to identify situations, like they did, and be ruthless and hit them harder than we have done before.
There's been a lot of talking about certain players being dropped but you have to remember we can't panic too much.
 The pain of defeat is etched on the faces of the England players |
For four of those five days in the Adelaide Test we won a lot of sessions and showed that we were a good enough side to beat them.
I wouldn't have thought there would be too much panic in the camp with them making a lot of changes for the next Test.
We have now got two tour matches before the Perth Test begins and there are going to be opportunities to get all the squad involved I'm sure.
So it will be a chance for people to make a claim, to go out there and show what they can do.
On a lighter note my wife and baby daughter have arrived to spend some time in Australia.
Shannon is coming up to three months old now and she has really grown since I last saw her.
She smiled at me for the first time too - and that put all that happened in Adelaide into perspective.