As Kaye told Ken Cooper, she'd forgiven Shane straight away when he committed suicide. 'We adored each other and were friends as well as partners'. Their planned wedding was just months away.....

After a mild row the night before, Shane had come to Kaye's work place to apologise and tell her that he loved her. He told her not to worry about anything and that he was off with friends for the evening. She never saw him again.

For the first few months after her fiancé Shane's suicide, Kaye Wainwright-Sands felt dead emotionally. Having arranged his funeral she fell to pieces.

Kaye's mum Jean remembers that weekend vivdly; the tearful call from Kaye, then the police coming around to break the news. They'd found Shane's car, with, as they said bleakly, 'a body'. Life fell to pieces for Kaye.

Shane's father had committed suicide when he was a teenager. Kaye had felt that she really understood Shane and it was a terrible shock that he was living with such anguish. She'd planned to spend her life with him. Now that she couldn't, she decided to sell up and move abroard. She's going to work in a children's hospice in Romania for six months. She says she is leaving to fill a gap but that: 'It's not a need; it's a want'. She's had a lot of misery, and now wants to help others who are in pain.

Kaye misses Shane terribly but has come to terms with losing of him. She wants to get on with her life. As Jean puts it: 'She's searching for something to give her peace.'

So, as people bustle around her home looking at the tv and video, clothes and books, Ken asked what it felt like having people looking over her her and Shane's possessions. She said that actually it was fine.

Shane won't be forgotten; in some ways he was a mentor. For example he gave her a respect for money. He paid the ultimate price for his pain, her's is living without him. Now Kaye is travelling light. She's just taking her teddy bear with her.